The Shallow End of the Pool

In other words, enough of this sitting around feeling sorry for myself shit.
 
Seriously, the last couple of weeks haven't been the easiest of my life, but I am really O.K. with things.  Many thanks to my family and friends who have been there for me.  I love you all, and you have helped me more than you could ever know.
 
The bottom line is this: I am not, by nature, a very emotional person.  I don't wear my heart on my sleeve and I am definitely not the touchy-feely type.  I don't crave affection or attention and am quite content to just sit quietly by myself and watch a movie.  Now take those last few sentences and remove all the "dont's" and "nots" and you have my wife.  None of these things make either one of us a bad person, or wrong.  We're just wrong for each other.  We don't hate each other, nor is there any bitterness or animosity.    For those who don't know, my wife came from a very dysfunctional family.  Her parents never had time for her, or each other for that matter.  As a result, she has a constant need for validation and attention because she didn't get anything from her parents for 19 years.  This is not her fault and I do not blame her for it.  Unfortunately, I am not the kind of person who can give her what she needs.  I truly hope that she can find what she is looking for.  What she really needs is to seek counseling to help her with these issues, but she just doesn't see it, and I really feel bad for her because I don't think she will be truly happy until she gets some help. 
 
And in the event that she does get therapy sometime down the road, maybe they can work out why she's a nagging bitch all the time.  :)
 
That was a joke.  Really, I don't want anybody in my family to be angry or bitter towards Victoria because I'm not.  She was never a part of a family like ours and genuinely does not understand the dynamics of how it all works.  We will both be better off this way, and I am anxiously looking forward to the next stage of my life.
 
Starting tomorrow it's back to business as usual down here in the Shallow End.  I saw "I, Robot" yesterday, so sometime this week we'll be talking about that, as well as Manhattan Bagel, and much more.  Stay tuned.